It quickly occurred to me that this was the blog (or one of them anyway) where someone took a strong stance about the recent Disney Movie, Frozen, and about how its shaped completely from "the gay agenda" and is liberal and progressive and yada-yada. I actually hadn't seen a link to this blog post before but I did see links to blog posts on facebook about responses to this blog post (or something exactly like it).
My experience while reading this blog post was quite incredulous. I felt shock and embarrassment that this woman would choose to represent the church I know and love this way. I guess that she would choose to represent Christ this way, is the shocking part. The other hard to swallow part is that she is clearly coming out strong against not only the movie, but gays, and liberals and progressives- but then she also states that she is not against gays, has a liberal mormon friend, and that she loves the movie. WHAT?!?!?! I feel a sense of whiplash because I don't know what part is true- I mean is both of it true- she loves it and she hates it? Or she loves it but she's going to bash it and all people who have same sex attraction- anyway?
I don't even think I can start to believe what she is saying because she spends so much of the post just rambling on and on without giving evidence. Then finally- if you scroll down a mile and a half she starts talking about why and how the message HAS TO represent the progressive agenda and gay people. And what she doesn't say but to me, it seems clear is that because this movie is clearly all about gays and their struggles, that those of us who are all about man+woman is marriage should shun it. But then again, she says that she loves the movie and has seen it several times. So, um...another round of whiplash. Is she saying its good or its bad?? I'm confused. Her message is pretty confusing to me!
Here's what I think. I think there are a lot of ways that people can see this movie. I don't think it completely and perfectly parallels any one of the struggles people face and feel they have to hide. What I do love about this movie is that it picked up on a general undertone of society today- and that is learning to love and accept yourself exactly as you are. And not just that, but loving and accepting other people exactly as they are. Of course that applies to gays as well. Is that really a bad thing? They have a very real struggle. Their families have a very real struggle, especially when they are growing up LDS or another Christian based faith that doesn't view homosexual activities as pure.
Another thing that I don't like about most Frozen blog posts is that everyone seems to only focuses on the "Let it go" part. It's like they completely miss the part where Elsa realizes that her actions do affect other people and she can't just go be free and live alone. She realizes that she has a responsibility to her kingdom and to her sister. In the end she sees her freezing problem as something fun and useful. I guess I don't see how that part parallels gay marriage equality. Maybe I'm just really naive or uninformed. I apologize. I don't really have close friends who are openly homosexual. Maybe I'm living in a bubble and one day it will burst.
I feel many things after reading this post. Sadness, because I think that most devout Mormons aren't all about bashing gays or Disney movies, or just being full-on paranoid. Somewhat paranoid too, I guess reading a post from a paranoid perspective makes me feel extra paranoid! Maybe the solution to the problem isn't in reviling but in showing more love and expressing your perspective in a respectful and more easy to read manner. I feel kind of annoyed too. I have been wanting to move back to Utah and this just reminds me of the bipolar-ism that exists there between everyone who has a black or white view. It seems like the members there can't stay on the same page and are basically at war with themselves. Its just not like that in Texas. But you also don't have a culture that is centered around family and the same traditions like Utah is. Sometimes when I've visited Utah I've felt like I have had to hide who I really am so the HATERS don't bash and rail against me!
When I first moved down here I was so afraid of everyone- because none of my neighbors were LDS. Some of them claimed to be Christian but all the Christian churches today are changing with society and so I think that in the end, the LDS church may be the only one who really holds traditional views of marriage and follows all ten commandments! Anyway, I was seriously scared to get to know anyone! What if they find out I don't drink or "party"!? They'll want an explanation and I'll have to talk about my church and then they'll hate on me and I'll feel like I have to hide...I'm just gonna stay hidden so I don't have to deal with all of that! Anyway, that is what used to go through my mind. That went on for a couple of years and then I just ended up going inactive and stepping away from the church and thinking that everyone else must be right and I must be wrong- because I've lived my entire life around almost all LDS people who live a certain way and now that I'm around people that are just people- all sorts- I'm not sure who to believe or WHAT!!
So I was inactive and doing my own thing- trying to discover my own truth for about a year or less, maybe. But I got so, so lonely. The church was the only way I had friends. I didn't really know how to make friends with just the people around me. There weren't any givens with them. I would have to figure them out from scratch! Eek!!! Scary! I did make a few friends with some really good people and tried their truth on for size. Ultimately I felt confused and I slowly began to realize that at least for me "you can take the Mormon out of Utah, but you can't take the 'Utah Mormon girl' out of me". That probably doesn't make much sense to several people reading this. But what I mean was that in my heart and mind and soul I was still this Mormon girl who was confused and not sure of herself at all. I had lived a life where I looked to everyone else to tell me who I should be. I don't know why I did this and I'm not trying to assign someone else the blame of it all.
But just for the fun of it, we can just reflect. Was it the culture that created this for me? Was it ingrained from my family? Did I choose to believe this way because that is just who I am? Maybe all of those things played a part. Here is another question. Is it really so wrong to look to other people and your "tribe" to define yourself? Isn't it a given? For those "energy people" out there, its the base/root chakra energy that being all stirred up! Some of you are probably like- "wait aren't YOU one of those weird energy people!?!" That's what a massage lady at the gym asked me recently when I requested that, at the end of my massage, she wipe my back off (so as to neutralize any tension in my muscles). I was confused, not even sure if I was one of those "energy people"...what does that mean?
Here I go now, just rambling on like that other lady. You see, that's why you don't hate on people and their dumb blog posts! Because you just end up doing the same thing!! Actually I've seen some really thoughtful blog posts that obviously were written with great care and thought, so it might just be my temperament or something.
So what's the point, Trish? You're supposed to have one, you know, because you're a dominant type 3!! There is a point and I guess it's just that this sort of thing just stirs up a lot for me. The positive thing is that I know that I'm not the only one who's got stuff going on that's getting stirred up. Gay people aren't the only ones with issues! Surprise! The thing is that once you play the "insecurity" card against someone it really it just a reflection of yourself. If you feel irked by someone then its really about something within you that wants to be resolved. Its something within you that isn't whole. That's why love is always going to win. You can't win with hate, you only create more hate. I've tried playing that card and it just never gets me far. The love card goes a lot further.
I don't understand the struggles that homosexuals face. But I do understand my own struggles. Do I want to keep them hidden? Yeah, most of the time. It seems like if I can minimize them then for a time they sort of just evaporate or go invisible. Yes I do feel really insecure about my struggles. Yes I'm afraid I would be alienated by people because of my struggles if I opened up completely and let them all out. Because the thing is, the people who would do that are comparing my weaknesses to their own strengths and they aren't even thinking about where they are falling short. We all are falling short. In some way. Some of us have addictive behavior patterns, some of us have same sex attraction, some of us are more mean than necessary,
What I wish that LDS people would understand is that the world isn't somehow more sinful than it ever has been. If you think that then you haven't read the Bible or the Book of Mormon in their entirety because some of those people were pretty darn wicked. You see anyone around here sacrificing children and women to idols? Do you see people murdering their family members and sleeping with a sword? I'm not going to say that those things are absolutely not happening at all anywhere in the world today (because how am I supposed to know, I'm just a blogger- and one who is rarely read by anyone!). But do you see that happening? There are some things that society is succeeding at. But the thing is, there has ALWAYS been wickedness in the world. Ever since the fall. Any sin is TOO MUCH SIN. That is why we all need the atonement of Jesus Christ. Don't look at someone and say that their sin is worse than yours. See their sins and offer your love. Then maybe they'll feel like they are worth it after all, and maybe then they'll start trying again. Many people have given up and lost hope of ever being good or coming close. That is why, instead of offering your judgments upon them you offer them your love.
I know that seems like a huge standard. I know I'm not perfect at it. I'd love to say that I was the perfect example of this and then tell everyone how to be as amazing as I am. But no I guess all I can say is that I'm human, you're human. Forgive yourself, forgive others. Christ condemned sin but not imperfect people. He showed love and offered us the ultimate hope and ability to overcome our temptations and challenges. He is there for you and for me if we only seek Him out.